My night started off like most nights around here. Pretty much perfect, except that our precious little Emma bug fights sleep. She has fought sleep since she came out of the womb. Sleep is her worst enemy. I guess every kid hates to give it up...and Emma is no different. She eats like a bird all day, and then bed time arrives and she can all of the sudden eat a horse...or broccoli. She is an angel all day and then another Emma inside shows itself when we mention pj's and a book. Every night we get the same question. "Will no one get me?"..."Will it not be too long of a nap?" I mean really...she literally watches nothing scary. Swiper the fox on Dora is about as bad as it gets and I really think she is scared of that stupid fox sometimes. Anyway...after assuring her about 100 times that No one will get her and that her "nap" will go by super fast...the crying begins. I had determined all day today, that I wasn't going to cave tonight. She is going to sleep in her bed by herself. And I didn't cave...and it was torture. She cried for what seemed like forever...she yelled from her room over and over "I love you Momma, I love you Daddy" "Can we cuddle in the morning?" Seriously...no joke. She really knows how to tear your heart out. Anyway, we got through it...she made it to sleep without anyone getting her and we will probably do the same thing tomorrow night. So...there I was laying in bed telling Justin that I hope I am doing the right thing. Telling him that I hope it doesn't scar her somehow...I really do worry about this stuff. I think every mother does. Then I watch this video on facebook.
http://vimeo.com/heschle/removed
Okay. I hope you took the time to watch this video. Suddenly it didn't seem to matter so much if Emma had to go to sleep by herself or if she had someone to cuddle with. She lives in a home where 2 parents love her more than anything and try to do the best by her everyday. End of story. Why do I worry so much? I tend to live in my Bubble. My bubble was just popped. I tend to get up in the morning, and the only think I really have to worry about is ummm...let me think...NOTHING. Sure, I create things to worry about on a daily basis, but I actually just sat here and tried to think about what I can truly worry about and I came up blank. I have been given this life on a silver platter and I have kept everything on it to myself. I watched this video and tears streaming down my face. Children. Little Girls. Little boys. This is the life they are handed so many times. And what do Christians do? What do I do? NOTHING. We don't even pray sometimes. All they need is love. All they need is compassion. All they need is security, consistency, and hope. Somehow all my love and compassion stays inside my bubble. I'm not just talking about children in the foster care system either. There are lost people everywhere, dying and going to hell. What is your burden for? Where could your ministry be? I guarantee that God has given you one...probably even more than one. He is GOD. He can use you. I know that He has given me burdens and ministries...and I just need to step up to the plate. I asked myself tonight...What am I doing that really matters? I am a wife and mother and those are ministries in themselves. I feel as if those are the 2 most important things in my life...but am I doing my family an injustice by staying in My Bubble? I couldn't sleep after watching this video...that is why I am blogging at 2:00 in the morning. I prayed for children everywhere. I prayed for a few situations that we know about personally. I prayed that God would show me what I can do to help. I prayed that he would help take my focus off of things that are just vanity. Things that will fade. Things. I prayed that God would help me instead to focus on people. Help me not to be selfish. Help me to truly reach out and care. This video is about foster care, but it really is about so much more than that. People are hurting and they need love. They need Jesus. Are you keeping Jesus in your bubble? Or are you sharing Him? I know for me...9 times out of 10. He stays in My Bubble. The Bible says in Luke 12 :48 "... For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required" I have been given much. Therefore much is required of me, and I am afraid I will all ready be held accountable for many things. God is Love, Mercy, and Grace...but think about it. Are you normally harder on your own kids? Or the kids who have had no one to teach them? God expects things out of His Children. We know better. We have been found. We know the way. Jeremiah 6:16 " Thus saith the Lord, Stand ye in the ways, and see, and ask for the old paths, where is the good way, and walk therein, and ye shall find rest for your souls. But they said, We will not walk therein." Ask yourself....Where is the good way...and then walk therein. I know that tomorrow morning I will wake up and again I will worry about things that don't need to be worried about. Things that don't matter will suddenly become very important. I hope that when that happens that I will continue to ask "Where is the good way, Lord?"
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